I am the walrus.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 00:04:42 GMT

I miss the old days. Things were so simple and delightful then. I've been so sad lately...

dirty poo

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 00:33:28 GMT

Quiting crummy job within the next week. May be able to get a job at walgreens in the photo section because the manager there is my parents neighbor. They pay 8 buckos too AND i can choose my own hours. Hazzaah! School's sucking. I have 3 major tests coming up and i haven't studied yet. It's so hard to pretend i'm interested in this crap. Well i actually like biology and western hum. but i am horrible with tests. I freeze up bad. Also, my lease is up in like a month. I'll miss this place but i think i'm set on moving back in with my parents and saving up a good wad of money. After about 6 months I can decide where i'm headed. Either staying in FL and living in Tampa or clearwater or moving to some foreign far off STATE. I miss my old friends. At least i'll be close to Carrie if i choose to move to california. It's just so expensive there and i realize that in Fl it's pretty cheap to live. I also don't know what's going on with the ole boyfriend. I would like to move away with him and start a life together (in 6 months) but as of now we are not on steady ground. I threaten leaving him on at least one occasion a week. He's very immature. I know he loves me, but he has trouble showing me and keeping to his word. I know it's hard for him to change his ways for the sake of my happiness, but he needs to get his priorities straight.
Anyway...I hope i get this job. I would stay at this boring heap if i didnt have to drive 45 minutes, 5 times a week, in ass to ass traffic. Good times. Well wish me luck suckas!

-BArley

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 00:16:58 GMT

ok so things aren't so god damn perfect. Maybe it's because i say god damn alot? Is the sweet lord cursing me? Life is good but it can never be as good as the profiles on myspace make it appear. It's only as good as your LJ, because most of us don't lie on this site, and if we do, we write another entry directly above it stating the truth. thank you.

Weeeeee!

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 20:01:59 GMT

I must say...that I am super happy right now!
(x)Getting along with parents
(x)Hunter and I, extremely in love
(x)Love my bro!
(x)School going excellent
(x)Work is ok (when is it ever anything above?)

So yeah, all is well. Sorry cruel world. :-)

blah.

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 00:23:21 GMT

bloop.

SICK OF IT ALL.

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 21:04:22 GMT

Are humans a naturally isolated species? Really, most of them seem like they unable to form any kind of strong bond with another human. They don't seem to understand the power of friendship or possess the qualities that aid in selflessness and/or generosity.

I have a "friend" who always seems to put herself on a self-righteous pedastool. Despite repeatedly being informed that she does this, she still does not seem to want to change. I'm fed up of her being a different person around her "significant" other whom she cheats on all the time. She has two boyfriends that know of one another. She will go to cali to visit one and lie to the other, not informing him of where she's going, despite claiming that she loves him so much. Then again she claims to love the one in cali "so much" but continues to elope with the one in florida and fall "madly in love" with him. She dates guys who are "less" than her. Well, less in her views. She says she likes dating ugly guys because they will treat her like a queen. She is literally using both of these really sweet and intelligent guys who are head over heals inlove with her. They are trapped because they fell in love with her before they found out how vindictive and dishonest she was. In my eyes, both of these guys deserve soemthing way better than her. They are much to good for her.
On top of all this betrayl in her love life that i see constantly infront of me, she's displayed so many flaws in her friendship with me.
She attended my birthday party but was most of the time either on the phone, sleeping in her car and my parents bedroom. she wasn't even present to sing happy birthday to me. She constantly makes plans and breaks them. She ALWAYS complains if she has to drive somewhere to meet up with me. And immediately when we unite she has a bitchy attitude towards me and whoever else i'm with. Like "you made me drive all this way, you should be kissing my feet."( None of my boyfriends have liked her and were always puzzled at why i would be frends with someone like that. She would always be a smart-ass or bitchy around them and they could see her treating me badly as well as treating . I guess it's because she knows me pretty well and she was the first person i met down here.)

She's constantly disrespectful towards my friends and I. She always brings drama and can never be completely satisfied. She hangs out with the bitchiest girls on the face of the planet that hate me for no reason. One of them i hardly know and have hung out with maybe 3 times. And each of those times ive been nice to her because im nice to everyone unless they give me a reason not to. And right after we hang out i hear from vanessa that she doesn't like me.Seriously, what's wrong with people? I find myself to be an extremely caring and generous person, sure i slip up sometimes, but more often than not people love being around me and love opening up to me. I try to satisfy everyone and be a good friend but none of it pays off and i'm constantly being put down or taken advantage of. I'm sick and tired of people and having to deal with drama and trying to satisfy everyone when i get no appreciation for any of it.
As for me and my supposed best girl friend in florida...I've had enough of her incapability to be a decent person.

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 00:33:00 GMT

This is an update....of.... my ....journal....confusion?

Basically, my body is still performing it's normal anotomical and mental functions.
I have discovered that as of NOW i am offically an adult, well let's just say "young" adult (aka still consuming some of parents goodies). I have my own apartment which i pay more than half of, i have my own car that i payed off in full and other miscellanious things that you pay for when you reach adulthood in its entirety. Weird how reaching that point consists of just paying for things. I still act the same, look somewhat the same as i did when i was a teenager. I just own more things. I guess it does make sense in some parellely normalistic universe, but i just don't see the change being so substancial. My parents still bitch me around, right?

JEWISH

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 21:40:29 GMT

Weeee whhooooo! I just got a brand new computer at my apartment so I will be updated this thangy a little more. Perhaps become more intimate with you folks. I can't at the moment since I'm either at work or....not home because of severe lack of things to do at my apartment, a.k.a. "internet funnies".

signing off.

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 22:56:12 GMT

Who reads this shit anyways...comment if you actually do....i'm afraid the outcome of this will be sad.

Hally

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 18:24:44 GMT

Well since my Halloween Horror Night's experience blew so extremely bad, I decided to make the rest of Halloween enjoyable. So, yeah, I didn't entirely succeed.

On Friday VAnessa, Brian, Me, Hunter, Anisa and Nelly all went to St. pete to go to a Halloween oriented bar night. Unfortunately, we had two underage people with us so we couldn't get into the 21 and up bar, even though anisa and I knew the bouncer. It turned out they would both need to pay VIP price (25) in order to get it. We obviously proclaimed, "fuck that". We ended up heading down to Vanessa's uncles bar, drinking there for a bit and listening to stupid Coheed and Cambria playing in janus landing. Afterwards we made our way to Baywalk and had some drinks upstairs. I had some weird green frozen drink. It was ok... We all just sat there and laughed and had a good time. Pictures soon....

On Saturday my friends who live in Ybor (Raf, James and Adam) we having a huge party with a DJ. Hunter and I didnt up making it up there intil midnight and by then everyone from the house had gone to Guavaween. We ended up meeting up with Anisa and Nelly and a few others in Guavaween. (Sucked). MY friend Josh never made it due to a severe lack of parking capibilities. James called later and told me to come by because they were all back at the house but it was 1:30 and I was tired. No pictures, thank god.

Monday- Halloween! Best night by far. Went to Stormans Halloween party with Anisa, Nelly, Vanessa and Brian, No Hunter. We decided to spend a night apart.I did miss him the entire time i was out there though. I must say, there definetely were some awesome costumes. So original and comical. A guy in a shower, shall I say? Two tree people? Made of REAL tree. Mmmm and a very hott Jack Sparrow. He ended up winning the contest, purely from the screams and woots of horny women. I ended up drinking 3 Coronas for 3 dollars and anisa had 4 mixed drinks for free. We crammed before open bar was over. Thank god for the 3 different bars they have...no one suspected a thing! I bought another beer later and payed 4 buckos for a Miller! Then someone bitch stole it when i put it on the table. Fortunately Gilligan was sweet enough to give me another one. I left there around 12:45 because I got there at 8:30. Thats about all the "quality bar time" I could take.

Well that explains my Halloween. Pictures soon soon. PEACEOLA.

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 22:34:38 GMT

I'm at work. And I'm eating a cookie.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 21:18:30 GMT

surprise! I'm at work

when am i ever not?...
OH, My gosh damn filling fell out, yay that.

Emily put a really funny pic of us in 7th grade on myspace. good riddens.

Esteban laughed at us.

I enjoy writing like this.

I had the best friday ever, after having the worst thursday ever.

Thurs- getting kicked out of halloween horror nights (Thanks to hunter), before even getting into the park. Being banned for a year.Not getting to hang out with vanessa and brian.

Friday- Going to sea world with hunter, getting attacked by vicious dolphins in the petting section and leaving drenched (so fun). Getting on camera at the Shamu show. BOTH OF US! I got my question right and he got his wrong. figures...jkjk. The best part was the night shamu show, ending with fireworks. It was a perfect ending. He was forgiven.

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 21:24:56 GMT

Have my talents gone??

I used to play guitar, write, draw, paint, take pictures...

I LOST 5 POUNDS! I am now 121! Thanks to exercising and eating less. Now just another 6 pounds and I'll be at my desired skin skin weight .

I really cannot wait to get my new apartment!! November 1st, friends. I will have my own little headquarters where I can do the things that define me. I'll be glad to get away from my nagging parents most of all. I am SO excited to go to SPC again. I was so sick of the private university (FMU) I was attending before. (God I wish my boss would fucking go home)---she keeps lurking around my desk---.

My allergies are KILLING me. Seriously, I feel like they have this astoundingability to control my entire life andruin my days. Speaking of killing, I really want to kill my job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate it, it's so boring and too goddamn far from my house. It pays really good.-that's about it. But the boredom is slowly tearing apart my ability to keep sane. Sometimes, just sometimes I feel like yelling at the top of my lungs. Just so there's some kind of out of the ordinary movement in this hell hole.

JESUS SMOKING A CRACK PIPE.*****how loverly***

gggrrr x 1 million

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 21:11:43 GMT

Am I supposed to wish myself out?....

God, I love dane cook.

I wish I had the confidence I possessed when I was 18-19, damnit!

Silly Wanker

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 19:22:45 GMT

Went to my first football game yesterday. Bucc's won!! yayeth. So I got an apartment this weekend. It's in Palm Harbor, close to my school and my family. It's called "The Fountains" and it's cheap so they aren't fabulous looking or anything but it will do for the time being. None of my friends live near me but whatever, I can occasionally drive to them or the other way around. Hunter will be 5 minutes away too.

This weekend = pretty awesome. Thursday I went to ampitheater with oyku, her boyfriend/guy she's dating and Hunter. We had alot of fun...Got to watch this guy blow fire and sling it around like it was air. It was really amazing.

Friday = Went apartment searching all day with my mom, bro came into town, had dinner at home with them. Too lazy to go out stayed in, was fun.

Saturday = Went to my co-worker/friend Chanly's house all day, her dog was amazingly cute. Her house was enormous. Later that night met Hunter's dad and step-mom at a woodstock party in a rich community in Tampa. His step-dads house was beautiful. Probably the best interior decorating I've ever seen. Must be nice to live so luxuriously. I mean REALLY luxurious. Sunday = skipped work and went to the game. Hunter's parents are really nice. His real mom is nice too. They are down to earth and very curtious.

Ponder

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 19:42:43 GMT

I act so stupid when I'm drunk.

Last night I was laughing at Estebon's gay run and I ended up escaping under a nearby pool table to laugh and roll around on the dicustingly dirty floor. Hunter was quite embarrassed and I didn't (at the time) understand why he could possibly have those feelings. The next day I look back to my drunken stupor and I realize how dumb I actually am.

Well it would have been somewhat acceptable if someone were participating in the same drunken escapades as I , but alas it was just silly me. And everyone was left to look (down) at me and chuckle at my alcohol induced zaniness.

I simply grabbed Hunter's arm and shouted "It's time to go home". Implying that I was waaaayyy to fucked up to be fraternizing in a public arena.

Although, Hunter had been begging to leave hours prior.

I always have to end up apologizing to those guys the next day.

Sometimes....just sometimes...I feel bad for Hunter for having to put up with me. But at his own expense he provides the care I need and he loves me dearly.

Finally. Someone who can handle me.....or maybe I should say:::::: Finally. A guy who truely loves/cares about me. Yay!

Lately

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 19:05:45 GMT

Mood: OK.

So, I've been thinking ALOT lately about death. God, I seriously do that way too much. I think I need to call my brother, my dad, and anyone else whom I love and I don't get to see very often. Yes, good plan.

It's really sad how people think about petty, useless things all day when you should be thinking about love. You should realize everyday that people around you love you. Because those people can be taken away from you in an instant. I have never experienced a loved ones death. Except for my baby cousin. But he was only alive for like a couple weeks and I only knew him for a week or so. The idea of someone that I know personally and love dearly being gone forever frightens me so much. It haunts me everyday. I hate thinking about it really, but I am glad that I am learning not to take things for granted and leave things unsettled between a loved one and I. I find that I do that alot with my mom and Hunter. I will improve on this. Who knows what could happen tomorrow or the next minute....I would be left feeling guilty and forever empty inside.

I guess.

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 20:02:51 GMT

I want/need friends. On this doohicky that is....

That is all for now.